Stress

So many things I want to say to him….I have written a huge email to him….addressing yet again….issues…things he never hears…never changes…

I held you tonight as you cried….not wanting to go….what am I to do? The court says you must….sometimes I am afraid to challenge it….afraid they will take you away even more….but I hate when you have to go….your so sad…and I cant make it better….I try…but the pain is there….

Should I address things yet again…you ask me not to on some things….afraid of the consequence of the words….but I think he needs to know…but your right….even if he knows…he wont change…

So we just held each other….knowing tomorrow you must go….

Sometimes dads suck…