September

What a month….busy….challenging….full of laughter….maddening even…

The end of summer….school began and we still are reaching for a routine….struggling…..disliking our teacher…already a note sent home because she and another girl passed notes in class…ugggh….

We now have 2…yes I said 2….puppies….one is so animated you just smile every time you see her…the other a white cottonball of fluff….challenging having 2 puppies to teach and take care….but love fills the house every day along with laughter…

I celebrated a birthday little over a week ago….causing reflection….tears…worries….ok since I always worry then lets say more worries….wondering what now?? am I really happy??

Theres been some personal losses…..some personall stressors….we leave for vacation next Sunday to the Grand Canyon and I feel it…. a relief for just those few days to escape…to regroup….to rethink….

I drove my daughter today to the barn….what a beautiful day it was….the trees beginning to change….always makes me think of change….how my life has changed….how it continues to change….sometimes more vibrant….sometimes dull but constantly changing…old worries replaced with new ones…some worries just blowing away like a weak leaf caught by a wind….how I love this time of year….the changes…the beauty…

I thought of our puppies…only a few leaves have fallen in our yard but its enough….they go out and when the wind blows you watch them…jumping and chasing and rolling….the white cottonball we call Sophie had a leaf stuck to the end of her nose…she kept jumping and yipping at it like she could catch it….over and over she tried to catch it….by the time it blew off her nose…she had lost interest and moved on to another one….my thoughtful mind wonders how often we do that….want something so badly and try and try to get it and then just let it fall when its within our grasp….then I laugh at the thoughts and just enjoy watching her catch another leaf….

Then my princess…after almost two years…overcoming the slight fears….grasping the challenge…on a beautiful fall day….on a beautiful horse…she jumped over a jump…then another…then another….I paced like a nervous mom around the barn door….unable to sit….she went around the course….over 9 jumps…I could see the smile in her eyes even though her mouth was tight in concentration….it was thrilling for her…and when I heard her ask her trainer….Can I do it again?? ….I know she met the challenge….like all of us find our ways to meet challenges…..

Sometimes we are not handed things in this life….sometimes we must chase them….pursue them…grasp them….its the only way to achieve our dreams…..

Smiles….and this is only…

September….lol

Hugs and kisses