Deeper

Do you ever stand at the water’s edge….looking out at its beauty…wanting so badly to feel it wash over you…..over your body….your mind…letting yourself go with the flow of it so to speak…..you may even dip your toes in to test it…deciding for yourself what to do next…..maybe perhaps even looking around to see how others react….before finding the answer in yourself….

Some may prefer to sit on the shore…..just watching others enjoy it….observing their reactions….maybe feeling inside like they wished they had the courage to venture out but afraid for one reason or another….so they prefer just to avoid it….

Some may take off towards it at full force….excited and exhilerated at throwing themselves headfirst into it….unafraid….adventurous….then when the initial joy of it has worn off…they find they are in over their head….or the waves which at first seemed exciting….now tosses them back to the shore….or leaves them flat on their ass….out of breath and tired from the experience….do they get back up and run in again? Unafraid once again to just jump in and see what happens the next time? Or do they rest a bit….catch their breath….maybe move out into the water slower the next time….ready to brace themselves against being tossed on their ass….again….??

I find myself today….reflective….thoughtful…..and yes….even hopeful….I love water….everyone knows that….its sensual….romantic…..passionate….and yes….at times it can be frightening when it wishes to rage….and yet it draws me….my heart cant seem to help being drawn to it…..

My skin is hot….my heart races as I cant wait to step into it….yet I move slow….I want to feel every drop of it if I can as it touches my skin….I wade in with my eyes wide open…..my fingertips out….letting my toes feel the ground underneath….assuring my footing…..making sure it is solid before I take the next step….hearing the sigh of enjoyment escape my lips as the water begins to cover me….the heat from my skin flowing out into it being replaced w/ such an extremely wonderful feeling…..like a long drawn out exquisite orgasm…..drawing my last breath in sheer ecstasy….the water draws me deeper….and deeper….I look to the sky and feel the warmth of my surroundings still coming down on me yet…the water….pulling me….drawing me…..deeper into it….drenching me w/ its flow….surrounding me with its essence…..and never have I felt this wonderful in my life…..and I am not afraid….I smile even….I splash it around….I swim in it….I become comfortable in it…..then I look ahead of me….out into the blue…..where it seems it will go forever…..touching the sky…

It is always here that I stop…..tilting my head as I contemplate my own personal next move….this is usually where I smile…..having refreshed myself in the waters comfort….and I turn and get out….having had enough for the day until I need it again….not wanting to venture out further over my head…I see the waves out there in the deep….starting small and then growing larger….I am not ready for those….or am I? I giggle even…thinking about landing on my ass….but then today….maybe I feel courage building up inside….maybe now….I am strong enough…maybe…the experience will blow me away even more than just standing here in the comfortable flow….maybe?

I look back at the safety of the shore….I see the ones that have decided to sit there…I see their faces….their longing…..I look out at the ones already in the deep….some are scared….but they dont give up….they keep going…and there in the distance….the ones way out who have ventured past even the largest of the waves….I see their faces….content….happy…

So my point? As wonderful as I feel today….standing….wet….enjoying the point I have reached…..I think today….

I am going to go……DEEPER…..

Anyone want to join me?….*smiles*

Just some “deep” thoughts this morning

6/2007 (something I had written a while ago…a reminder to myself…to just keep swimming…hehehe)

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23 thoughts on “Deeper

  1. saffy says:

    This piece spoke to me on so many levels…i’ve always been in my element in…on…or around water…i suppose it calls to the little fishy in me…not only does it reflect my moods…but it heightens my senses…& even soothes my soul in times of need…someone once asked me…’where shall we go’…my reply…anywhere near water…i now know i want to go deeper too…beautiful, thought provoking blog sweetness…~hugs you~ xxx

    • summerrain63 says:

      Oh I love water too….hence my name summer rain….something sensual…passionate…and plain peaceful about it…even the sound of it whether ocean or brook or waterfall…soothes me…..hugs ya tight..

  2. Charles says:

    I would probably drown.

  3. Duma Key says:

    Powerful blog, reaches out to my mind with thoughts of life, where would I sit or how far in would I go? am I brave enough to move out past the waves… break free!

    Very clever blog that speaks volumes, great thoughts and writing!

    • summerrain63 says:

      When I wrote this….I was pondering whether I should enter into a more serious committed relationship….something very hard for me…decided I would put it here as this has become my place of keeping things….thank you very much for sharing your thoughts…I love hearing others views….

  4. Greeneyes says:

    wet and longing…what more is there….smiles…great blog honey….

  5. Jaymie says:

    Glorious! I’ll join you in the water. 🙂

  6. calliopespen says:

    Make room for one more:)

  7. I ask my family to take me to the beach every two months or so, I love everything about it… But between you and me, I’ve never know how to swim, good thing they hold me and dip me and help me feel the water on my toes, because girl I’d drown.
    Come to think of it, I nearly drowned twice in my life back in the day, the first time my uncle threw me and his sister in the water calling us cry babies, we drowned till he saw we really couldn’t swim. Second time was at a school beach trip day, I think I wanted to look cool and got in, I nearly drowned again.. Those were good times!

  8. Shadowplay says:

    I love the metaphor for this… and the luscious detail. Somedays, I feel utter perfection just sitting on the shore. No need to move a finger. Just taking it all in…

    Other days, I long to venture in, but don’t. And on a few others… I might just take that plunge after all.

    Your post is such a great reminder to go for it, when that urge takes us. It’s a kind of fearless exuberance that speaks deeply to the goddess within.

    Beautiful…

    • summerrain63 says:

      Your comment made me want to jump in now….course maybe its the cold temps we have had this week….

      Still….warm breezes….sand in my toes…..sun in my hair and cool water….oh yea…just a metaphor wasnt it…lol

      nice to see you and thank you….smiles

  9. Summerrain..how apropos with your name..to be lost in the rain..the imagery of water you portray is fluidly beautiful…so many metaphors in water..from rivers to just being “wet” or getting..wet..The river is a sign of ease, grace and fluidity; as expressed by its meandering form. Often times it is used to represent the calm beauty of nature. In Feng Shui (the ancient Chinese art of placement to improve qi flow), certain types of rivers are often described as auspicious and healthy.

    A fast-flowing river can often be used to symbolize strength; sometimes calamity. Calamity can be represented through rushing, chaotic rivers that tend to flood.

    Lovely post

    • summerrain63 says:

      I do love all forms of water….good thing I asked for those private swimming lessons huh?….lol…need sleep this morning so feeling a bit giddy…

      You sure do know alot of stuff G….smiles…

  10. purple says:

    amazing how universal some ideas and images are and what could be more elemental and universal than water, our first universe. I wanna drown … symbolically of course.

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