The Discovery

Ocean_Cave_by_callianassaFrom 2007….when I began to realize….He was something more…much more…smiles..

 

The Discovery

She paced….back and forth through the house…her
mind flashing like a million different
lights…thoughts…images…and always the
voices….the one from the past….reminding her of
her insignificance…her worth…or lack of it….her
nickname….stupid bitch….her fists clenched at her
sides…no more…tears began to flow….the lump in
her throat now obvious…the nausea….almost
overwhelming…

She tried to sit…..look around her…..the
surroundings she had created for herself….the life
she had found for herself….for a moment she
smiled…she had come far….finding a world of
contentment within herself…she had found
freedom….a voice….constantly moving forward
realizing how beautiful life really is….being
blessed as a mother…her heart filled with that
love….yes…for a moment she smiled….she had come
far….

Yet….there was something….missing…something yet
she had not overcome…she knew what it was yet she
chose to avoid it….work around it…fill her world
with everything and become her own without it…yet
today….something….something…..she needed to do
something today….felt it…wanted it…something she
knew…..her fear…her doubts….. crippled
her….surrounding her…..so again she paced….so
unsure of her direction…lost as she had never really
known….never really wanted to know….and like a
caged animal….she needed to escape this overwhelming
feeling….

The beach….her place….her peaceful place…..her
safe place…..feel the sand between her toes…..the
water softly lapping at her feet….the wind in her
hair….the sun on her skin….her favorite
place….watching the horizon stretch forever….she
could walk….throw her arms out….scream even if she
wanted…no walls to close in on her…

She walked forever this day….tension beginning to
leave….replaced with sadness that she lacked the
strength to find direction…frustration that she
could not erase the doubts….then she looked up
ahead….for a moment there in the cove….a
flash….a reflection of light in the darkness…it
got her attention…her curiosity….what could that
be…catching her eye….it pulled at her…she had to
look…even though she usually avoided the cove…it
was way too dark…she found herself heading right to
it….she had to know….it flashed its beauty
again….and this time…she could not look
away….not until she knew what it was…so even
closer she went….heading now…slowly into the
darkness…

She stopped right inside…gathering her
bearings…attempting to focus…feeling along the
rock wall towards the spot she knew she had seen the
spark of light….she saw the tide beginning to come
in….water entering the cove….maybe she should
hurry or surely it would be lost….the walls closed
in and she got down on her knees…now crawling to
find what she was seeking…she stopped a moment to
glance around….assuring herself no one was
watching….how foolish she must look groping around
in the dark….the water began to rise around
her….her hands becoming more
frantic….searching…..reaching…..a sense of
slight panic rose in her throat…this need….she had
to find it….somehow it seemed to be so important to
her now….to know…she had to know…she began to
cry….yet again this day….please….I have to know
she thought to herself….but it was being covered
with water….she sat back and began to sob….she was
going to give up….it was gone….and she had missed
the chance to grab it…

Suddenly she felt warm breath on the back of her
neck….a warm hand covering hers….she jumped
slightly at his touch….a voice as warm and soft and
somehow comforting….telling her softly….dont be
afraid…let me help you find it….together their
hands went beneath the water….moving small
rocks….until yes…her fingers felt it…she felt
herself laugh…a deep laugh of pure joy…he laughed
too…more at her than anything else…she didnt
care…he had helped her find it….she looked at him
for a moment and they shared a
smile….genuine….true….and then he washed the
round object and handed it her….and then she saw
it…for what it really was…

It was old like it had been around for some time…it
had some rough spots on it….and in the
center….there was a small piece missing…but
otherwise it was the most beautiful gold compact she
had ever seen…unique…different than any she had
ever seen…still shining despite being in the dark
for who knows how long …she rubbed her fingers over
and over it….she looked at him….smiled
again….any other day she would have jumped up and
run from a strange man in the dark…but somehow she
felt comfortable seated next to him….open it he said
to her…she looked at him…because suddenly she
realized what she really had found…tears again now
flowed down her cheeks…open it again she heard
him….but she already knew what was in it…did she
really have to look?…then so softly she heard
him….dont be afraid….and for a minute their eyes
met….and for just a moment she could have sworn the
gold from the compact seemed reflected in his
eyes….and with her fingertips tracing over and over
the top….she opened it…almost expecting it to be
broken inside…but then much to her surprise….she
saw herself….looking back at her…not broken at
all…she giggled and heard his low laugh….see how
simple that was….and then his hand reached for
hers….she stared at it…then at him again…

Lets go….yes…they needed to go….the water was
rising now all around them….he helped her up… his
hand holding hers….she didnt pull back…because
suddenly it seemed like everything seemed to be in
place…her mind had stopped…..her
thoughts….gone…even if for a little while….she
smiled and walked with him toward the opening of the
cove…one hand gripping tightly to her
“discovery”….the other hand….held tightly to
his….and together…they left the darkness and
headed out towards the sunlight…and when she felt it
touch her skin…nothing had ever felt warmer….

*smiles*….I lost my compact today….anyone seen
it?…

Hugs and kisses

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2 thoughts on “The Discovery

  1. saffy says:

    Discovery Cove sounds sooo magical…thank you for sharing such a beautiful story…Hugs & butterfly kisses xxx

  2. summerrain63 says:

    Finding pieces of ourself…sometimes it only becomes clear….with the help of another…to take away the fear….even though it is within us…the whole time…

    magical….yes it is…and I do know how you like magic…smiling…

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